You are enrolled in school bags, it was to get you, your flower folding umbrella rain was to hit you, your favorite child depression that Sam Sun, someone you pack, you wronged the tears, someone to rub you; you are in that foreign land, the people in care; you back to the home side that was brewed hot tea, you are lying in bed that it was shedding tears, smile when you reveal that music was flowering, ah, ah, this person is your mother who is the mother, This person gave me life, give me a home ... ...

    I really like this song, often singing, each to sing for him, just like the great maternal love around me, touched me, inspired me.

    Spring Festival this year, I went to my home mountain in northeastern Jiangxi Province, to visit my parents, my mother is 82 years old this year, ten years ago because of hemiplegia and found several hospitals no cure, is now completely paralyzed in bed, unable to take care of themselves up. It seems as though the period is not far to go. The strange thing is, I bid farewell to her, see her as a little sad but did not look.

    Mother 10 years old, because the family was very poor, to the one surnamed Li of the people to do a child bride, 14 years old roommate, have children next year. Originally Xiao Rizi flies also very smooth and can be good thing is, married only three years, her husband drop off his family, than she has nearly 10-year-old husband died of illness to death.

    To Lache Da less than three years old child, the mother can only remarried,bride dresses married to a Luo surname in the Licun Chaduilahu people a year, followed by Romania last name had a daughter. So with two children, days though hard, but also comfortable.

    This can be chosen to ease the day after less than five years, have a master tailor named the river there. Master Jiang is from Jingdezhen to the mountain, as to why go to mountainous areas, I still can not research, did not personally tell me why. Jiang Li Cun stay here in the post-master, alone, a great talent, their homes and showing clothes to help people, then the rural areas though very poor, but in order to meet the liberation of every household is willing to spend money on adding new clothes, so after Master Jiang few years make some money.

    Made money, very good mind, from time to time in aid to the underprivileged people, give some money, food stamps or cloth class vote. Of course, nearly three-year-old man, not a wife, husband, day out for those who inevitably make work-point feed their families, and children at home with the womenfolk coveted hospitality tailor somewhat, over time, slightly Shi Xiaohui Luo's wife took him to coax his hand. Because his family is also a surname, so there is no objection with the villagers, not to mention a little bit a little money on hand master Jiang, who is also active, many people still do for him to make this work.

    This name is Jiang's tailor is my father.

    Father and mother together, the support brought by the mother of two children, my eldest sister was there, the family to live very good, although occasionally his father would ensue when certain Taosexinwen out, but it has nothing to do cause illness.

    But I was born, things there are some changes, and then began bustling about "revolution", mother was born poor, then the people's commune, a woman director I do not know how sympathetic she was, and always looking for the mother talk to her big team of women cadres, tell her, the mother had agreed. The next thing is, the mother must make a clean break with his father, discovered his father's counter-revolutionary crimes (they say a father was what the KMT Wuyuan County officials,Western Wedding Dresses in the end is not the father still could explain), so you can absorb the mothers joined the Communist Party of China.

    I am three years old that year, the repudiation of the mother and father divorced, my family was copied, the only home the money and furniture have been took away. Want to join the party struggle positive mothers is very high, every day the first thing to do is wake up, treble loudspeaker in the brigade shouted: Down counterrevolutionary Jiang Moumou, then the first people with a passion from his father cattle grid in charge out, hanging black card, put on flattery, first tour in the village again, then sun valley jail until the production team the Tanzania field, day after day the criticism began, finished, use cold water bath in the winter .

    But despite how hard his mother fight her husband, how heartless do not own children, she ultimately failed to become party members, I do not know because she was a child bride origin, does not know a word, or ulterior motives are just jealous of my father , or other reasons. That winter I was five, days so cold, my father was still labored in a closed, begging her sister out to late to bring back the cold hundreds of leftovers for me. Cattle grid in one day I went to visit his father, he had made a long time without reason, no scratched his beard, I looked at his father just as men talk about the terrible bandit look, then started crying, afraid to sleep at night, crying night, big sister also followed cry.

    Early next morning, I went to the mother's residence - her ex-husband Lee's old house door, knelt in the deep snow near Banchi, cried: Grandma, go home, do not leave Maomao. Days, also under the snow, I am kneeling dark, crying to the dark, my mother never did open the door, Sister begging to come back and found I was not at home, to find me, pull me home, my childhood, the day the tears all Kugan, never ever not cry, do not say a word now. The villagers do not talk to me, thought I was dumb.

    Over the years, my father was finally home. The age of nine, I said that the first thing is that I want to study. However, easy reading, although the entry fee was only five cents, an egg can replace it with a pen and an exercise book, but Dad had not yet rehabilitated, school is difficult,Bridal Dress Gown we must spend money to find someone. To this end, 17-year-old big sister bride price of 300 dollars to sell itself to a village recognized as idle and in-laws is extremely difficult to get along with the villagers.

    To draw a line, would like to join the party and the divorced mother, My life was miserable, nothing to do, raised pigs for the production team, played in the integrated plant of flour, what farm plow harrow are competent, many people tried to persuade her, come back, my father also has this meaning, do not want no children from small to large tan, but my mother never did come back, did not remarry again. I still also do not understand this, why the mother would not come back, if it is because of guilt had to listen to others, and that compensation should come back.

    A long time, I can understand her a heart of stone, she never ignored the feelings of the sons and daughters, although the same village with his father, my wife at home, have children, she did not come to see it. Every time I go home buy something or give her money, she just silently accept and will not say anything, and then carefully close up the money or property, and so I left, take the matter to her husband's grandchildren They, and my son was born the day of play from high school now, and hard to come home once a year to see her, Jing Mei ate an egg and a snack her!

    I do not understand many things, sometimes listening to the village people say, I have not been back for some time, first mother said the neighbor, plush long time no home to see me, I was his Mother down the hall, he would not bother me The Mother, I do not blame her.

    Every time I think, see, they sing "mother" of two words, I is a kind of vacancy of expression, it seems that these two characters and I never had anything to do, when every time I appear to enthusiastically sing " mother, "this song, I clearly understand that I just described as hysterical the Ganhao, never had true feelings revealed.